I have this thing that I suddenly get moody and angry. It’s hard to deal with so much anger. It’s hard to be so full of anger. I used to be full of sorrow, but time .. time changed sorrow into anger. You feel angry at who you were, you feel angry about what you did .. Sometimes I feel breathless… I feel like I’m sinking into anger and frustration. And I have this feeling that I will die without knowing how to live.
If you are unsure of who you are anyone can come and say you are something that you are not and make you believe it. You begin to live a lie .. you begin believe in lies about you because you can not see the truth in the mirror… live a lie and start see yourself as a lie is what can happen when you are unsure of who you are. And I know and I can say that this is a sad way to live life
I was a very silly child, feeling completely lost and out of place in relation to life..staring myself in the mirror for long time, trying to figure out who I was and what I was doing here. I was a silly and weird child. I loved books and tv. I could not understand people and what they felt about me. I was very afraid. But well…I’m not a child anymore. Fear turns to anger..but I still think that life is too weird, I still catch myself staring in the mirror trying to understand all this.
I always loved too much. Always gave myself unreservedly. Always loved with everything I had and was. I could forget myself.. just to make happy who I loved. I’ve always been the only broken one. What I know is love can make you sick. Loving too much can kill you.