"The hardest thing is when you are feeling real down, you look around and realize that there is no shoulder for you.
But I’m getting old and more and more comfortable in being alone.
Because I have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint me.
I understood that will always be like that, and I understood that I need to handle it better.
I feel too much and I probably care too much.
I am a loner in some dark deep way.
I can see just how lonely, and how deep my feelings are and it kinda scares the shit out of me to be this lonely and sad since always.
My loneliness and my imagination makes me human and makes me a fool but I am never holding onto people… people are always leaving.
Someone said ‘The longer you go by yourself the weirder you get.’,
when I was a kid I just felt like I was a sad little weird needy thing.
I’m getting old..
I’m getting farther..
Is harder to break me.
Is harder to fool me.
I am responsible for my own disaster.
Sadness and loneliness is also part of who I am.
I can’t be cheerful all the time.
Most of the time I do not understand people and I prefer to keep quiet. And I just know that most of time there is no shoulder for me.
But I know too that loneliness, pain, and sorrow will not kill me."
I’m feeling sad so I think
I need a new tattoo, and I need a girl, and cuddle watching Hocus Pocus.
When I am angry, I am cold.
When I am jealous, I am ironic.
When I am sad, I am quiet.
I’m not that hard to understand.
But I’m hard to live with.